Monday, September 20, 2004

Empty feelings

Lonesome Posted by Hello

"I'm leaving on a jetplane, don't know when
I'll be back again, oh baby I hate to leave you"

It's strange, being here in Kota Kinabalu (KK), though its been three years and now after graduating and staying back you have this odd feeling that all the familiar faces around you have left and even those people that you don't know, the person sitting next to you on the bus, walking by in town, eating by the adjacent table, watching movie a row away in the cinema, paying bills, partying, etc., you somehow miss them though they're strangers, they're as much a part of your daily life as those you know intimately. All these now seem so distant as many of those I once call friends, and even those that I don't, are no longer about. Walking about, everyone seems new, different and almost alien, as if I somehow don't belong here.

I must admit that after the departure of my long time roomies, Adrian and Kuok Sum, its been a bit lonely here, we've been through so much, both good and bad times and now everyone is somewhere else, doing something, getting ahead in life, the difference is that our paths don't always come together as often as in the past. Maybe this is a sign of growing old, of being nostalgic and of looking back again in time, sometimes getting caught just starring into space as the mind travels back to a time not so present. Well a lot of great memories I have and its thanks to some very good people, wherever you are, take care!

Pic: A couple awaiting their flight, sat lonesome while watching aircrafts taking off and wondering when it's their turn to drift into the wide blue yonder. What are they thinking? What are they feeling? Imagining the lands they are about to head to or remembering what they're leaving behind? (Sony P-9, F/5.6, 1/160 sec, ISO 100)


Jeremy said...

Somehow, despite having acquired a dinky digital camera, I have yet to catch on to the digital bandwagon. I fault the level of refinement of my Konica SLR system. It is so much more responsive, robust, and far more of a photographic tool than my Kodak DC4800. This is unfortunate because I spend too much on professional films and processing.

your_waitress said...

i love this shot. i definitely captures the feelings of isolation and loneliness. nice work.

Adrian said...

nice, really nice... here's a tip... when taking architecture or parallel lines, zoom in half full on your digital. It helps to remove the pincussion/barrel distortion, making lines look cleaner.

Of course, you could spend some money on an SLR/medium format that accepts off center focus lenses that you can adjust for perspective correction. The Zeiss lens I saw for the Hasselblad costs not much, oh around USD7k?